Used to/loving him

I used to hold so much for him.
He used to mean so much.
That is,
until he hurt me.

Now its pain whenever i see him.
Now its hurt and regret.
I shouldnt have told him how i feel.
All he did was question my emotions, and reject me harshly.

Now I see him with another.
And it breaks my heart.
He knows I still love him.
She knows it too.

But he hurt me so,
and ill never forgive him for those times.
I can never fully hate him,
as I always go back to loving him.