Something's Wrong.

Plunging into the depths of my mind.
There's nothing left to find.
What's lost is forever gone not to my concern,
What's here-it will forever burn.

A shadow of loneliness by my side.
Waiting for it's turn to ride-
Heavily in my soul.
It waits while I struggle to be whole.

I feel so lost.
Everything good comes with a heavy cost.
How do I manage to forget,
Something I don't even know yet?

Everything stresses me out,
No matter the amount.
Nothing seems to stay or go away.
Now I must say.

Please don't punish me anymore.
I don't know what I'm being punished for.
I am so confused.
And for no reason, I feel so used.

What am I doing wrong?
I only wish to belong.
Surrounded by every smiling face,
Wanting everything but space.

I don't need my knife,
I need my life.
Let me fit in his arms again.
Let us be- Not what we could've been.