Still don't get it

Where do you get off?
You think you're better than me
Ya, I love you, but that's crazy
I try to understand just what you see

When you have something great
How can you treat it so bad?
I can't get it to make sense
We lost it all, but still not mad

Abused myself, taking care of you
I'd drop anything just like that
I'd give & give, but what's there to take?
With you giving only problems back

Taking all you know for granted
Can't appreciate a thing
Always wanting more, but standing still
Expecting me to bring

All can work but you
You're so damn proud to stand in place
It took 4 years for me to realize
My first loves a proud disgrace

You're 21 years old, I was 17 supporting you
Everyone said you were using me
It's hard to face it when it's true

I bought your cigarettes, food, clothes, and more
To give to you made me smile
Did all I could to make you happy
Thinking you loved me all the while

Cuz we were inseparable
We'd do anything to be side by side
I went 4 days without coming home
From both our families we would hide

To this day, I still don't know
If I was being loved, or being used
Everyone seen the obvious
But I still remain confused!!