Tonight i tried to cry myself to sleep,
I know that I should not weep.
But some things in life cause so much pain,
That at times I feel nothing's left to gain.
Why is my life so unstable at times?
And why does it hurt listening to Leann Rimes?
If only there's something to numb it away,
For I really don't want to feel this way.
Through it all what hurts me the most,
Is that you're out in the east coast,
And your folks object one thing.
You coming to take me under your wing.
You tell me it'll be okay,
But I know what they mean to say,
It's their way of disapproving me.
And saying we're not meant to be.
You said it's not true, indeed.
But it causes my soul to bleed.
I feel so hopeless, and weak.
Am I going though a bad luck streak?
Everything feels so out of control,
And I'm feeling less of a whole.
I should be strong and bold,
But by the minute, I'm getting so cold.
I thought I was right about this thing.
Turns out it's all a misunderstanding.
It was a bad conclusion.
I just didnt' know the real reason.
But why didn't he tell me at first?
Because not knowing made my tears burst.
He shouldn't have to hide it.
For I kept thinking he didn't want to visit.
I mean i planned so much to do
I was looking forward to it too.
Sadly I told a friend the change of plan.
He scared me saying "that's not good Ann."
I asked why is it not?
And he said "give it a thought,
Why would he cancel the first time,
Not that it's a crime?
So with that it got worse
Feeling everything was a curse.
Thinking he's not true anymore,
And maybe to him I'm now a bore.
All those thoughts are now a goner
And hopefully he'll be here this summer.
If he says he can't see me then.
I would worry and all this will come again.
