Just for you

It's cold out.
but i sit outside anyway.
what a day.

i think in my head.
the hole time.
i shut my door from everyone.

know one knows why i shed that tear.
let it freeze on my cheek.
let my pain run dry.

my love is over.
the ice is coming for me.
letting me be stuck here.

forever and always.
like you want me to.
you wanted to break me down.

so why not freeze?
tonight in the cold.
let my lips turn blue.

let me die.
let me cry.
let me become dry.

i know you want me to.
you loved and lost me.
you never cared really.

so tonight i can plan this.
the right way.
not the wrong way anymore.

so i shut and lock my once upon door.
i sit out side.
and i cut my arms.

shedding of blood.
freezing till the tip of my hand.
letting it stay.

I'm like a snow angel.
but with color.
I'm a death snow angel.
just for you.