Last hugs and kiss

I can't imagine how I'd be
Not knowing what's in store for me
Thinking over my life, day by day
Not knowing when it will go away

But why wait for all this to come?
When i can do it myself, it will all be done
I'll just cut right here, but not too deep
To you its a promise, I promise to keep

When i say its over, its really the end
Theres no words to describe, none to defend
Don't say a word, say nothing at all
Its all my life, its my final call

This call that I'm making, will never be changed
Like the things in my life that cant be arranged
Everything is over; its all in the past
There are no questions to answer So why should you ask?

I've broken a promise, but its not the first
I've cut too deep, and it really hurts
Nothing i can do, its all said and done
As I'm lying on the floor, waiting for help to come

I scream but no one can hear
I'm all alone no one is near
so i lay in the blood, too scared to cry
So i say to myself all my good byes

As I'm going through the list, I stop on one name
The one that took my heart and played dirty games
ya I loved him dearly but now I'm a fool
He broke my heart and now plays it cool

Why should i care, he Left me dying inside
But i faced the pain, and killed my outside
But its all too late, i cant turn back time
I believed everything even the lie

I'm stupid, I'm foolish, but what can i say
Every nite I lay down i dream the last day
The last time I had to see or talk to your face
Because there is no one, that will ever take your place

Thats something I've said from that day one
When we were in love, but now thats all done
You've moved on and i have been trying
To stop all the tears, I'm tired of crying

So now I'm On the floor barely hanging on
Just waiting for the moment, it will all be gone
Its coming up fast, so i hurry the list
And i stop on the last day, i tasted your kiss

That day is stuck in the back of my head
Until that final day, the day that I'm dead
That day has come, its all said and done
I've been waiting too long for this day to come

So as i say the last good byes i stop and i look
And i write the last entry in my little black book
The final few words are laid out like this
I love you mom and dad; hugs and a kiss