Dear...

Dear....
I'm sitting here thinking of how much I was hurt, but then I think of how your hurting in there. Just thinking what if what if we never would of hooked up. What if we never would of met?
What if you weren't my first? Now I regret it. At first I didn't, I thought I was sure. But I was blind, I gave it away like it was a dime. I thought it was love. But I guess not. I'm sorry for screwing up your life. Sorry for walking into your life. Sorry for being a chapter in your book. See but when I gave it up to you, that wasn't the only thing I was giving up. I was giving up my parents trust, their love, I was giving up my friendships the lust. I was giving up my family and friends. I was giving up my love & life so your not the only one who is dieing inside. See I am also dieing inside and out just knowing that I put you in there. These tears are as empty as my heart. These words are as hallow as my soul. I pray and ask god each and every day to let you be okay.