When i read the first part of this poem i imediatly started shaking i still am i can't stop crying my heart i think skipped a few beats i can barely type i love you so much you my best friend no friends could ever be closer than we are i can never tell you how sorry i am how much i hurt you i can't believe that i did that knowing how much you would be invilved i can barely breath right now if i wish that i could turn back and not do it if i knew it was going to hurt you this much i mean i knew but i just wasn't thinking about how much i was hurting anyone that night i wish you knew ho wsorry i am i think i'm hurting more now than i thought i was in the hospital because i know you were just putting on a brave face when i saw you and talked to you when i was in there i love you so much i don't know how you could ever forgive me i'm so sorry katreasa i'm so sorry