:( Makes me sad...
Having a family that tells you what to do, think etc really messes you up especially inside your head..Ive had it..I hated it, but never accepted why I was depressed because I knew my mum was sick and I knew if I gave up, Id be: 1) giving up before her, and she had a terminal illness and 2) I was too scared to do anything because I could see she really did love me..I didnt see it for a long time, I always saw everything as \\\"normal\\\" but when the near-end came for her, I really did see it..and in a way, I was glad I didnt give up before she left... But in a way...Im sorry I didnt give up sooner..
Dont let your family/people control you.. they wil only make it worse, sorry but its the truth,...Ive been there and now Im more f-cked then I was then... People have enough trouble changing themselves...But changing another being is twice as hard...
Friends will always love you.. even though they might say \\\"you mean nothing\\\" or \\\"I hate you\\\", If you were to go, It would hurt them in extreams and kill me..
I love you more then anything..
Please answer you phone, I may be going to JF soon.
Love me xox.