Trying

-Trying-

I'm trying to see you
But you keep fading away,
I want you to love me
As i do you, every day.

I'm trying to touch you
But you just step back,
I keep losing my grip
I just continue to stack.

I'm trying to hold you
But you won't let me near,
You say that you don't love me
I sense all this fear.

I love you so much
And it's breaking my heart,
That you don't want us together
You want us apart.

I miss you every day
When you're not around,
You give me so many butterflies
That i levitate above the ground.

You're everything i want
And so much more,
You don't want me at all though
So you turn and close the door.

You don't understand
The emotions you're making me feel,
You're absolutely KILLING me
You and your heart of steel.

It hurts too much for words
As i grab the air,
Trying to reach you
But you stand there and stare.

All you do is watch me in front of you,
Wriggling and writhing,
Red tears falling down my face
I feel like I'm dieing.

My eyes are so sore
My throat is killing me,
I wish, wish, wish, wish
That i could make you see.

I can't speak at all
I just seem to choke,
I don't know if you know
My heart you have broke.

So continue not to love me
For whatever reason it is,
I can't find what I'm doing wrong
So I'll forget what everyone says.

Just stand there and watch
Even though inside, I'm silently dieing,
You just don't seem to get
How long and hard I've been trying.

Dedicated to Jack