Sorry Mum (My Suicide)

I take the knife,
To take my life...
As I sit,
I slowly slit.
Across my arm, across my soul,
The night grows longs and cold.
The blood flows,
The pool grows.
The light is dimming,
My head is swimming.
I fall to the floor,
My eyes are sore.
Slowly they start to close,
This is the suicide i chose.

Swallowed up by the pain of another,
As i die.. i see the face of my mother...

Sorry mum, i had to go,
Sorry mum, my death was slow.
Sorry mum, I gave no clue,
Sorry mum, hurt you.
Sorry mum, I chose to leave,
Sorry mum, don't greive....
Sorry mum, you had to watch and wait,
Sitting helpless, horrible fate.
Sorry mum, i had no choice,
I couldn't use my voice.
So I sat and suffered in silence,
Surrounded by anger and violence.
Sorry mum, you can't hide the scar on my arm,
Sorry mum, i chose self harm.