I would sit down and look you in the eye
Hold you close until my last goodbye
I would tell you about my past
About how good times, to me, never seem to last
I would shed a tear or cry an ocean
Spill to you about how I'm so broken
I would tell you I'm a cutter, that suicide's my thing
But I don't know what you would say, what kind of drama it would bring
I would tell you that I feel so ugly all the fu.cking time
Not point out your flaws, but focus in on mine
I would show you the scars of a past so deep
That even if I tried to, those tears I could not keep
I would pray to God until my tears run dry
But even that wouldn\'t help and I can\'t answer why
I would apologize for years on end
And tell you I never want you to stop being my friend
I would give you all the joy I could bring
At the cost of losing everything
I would give up all I had
Just so I could rest assured that you\'re not mad
I would give up my world just to let you see
Exactly how much you truly mean to me
I would tell you I\'m okay
If it would let you rest assured for the day
I would hold back the tears and pretend I\'m someone else
But I can\'t hide all the feelings I\'ve felt
I would have told you sooner, but I didn\'t know how
That I\'m the best actress you\'ll ever meet
And then I\'ll take my bow.
