Not Being Me

Access denied, no way in,
No way to get into my mind.
Screwed me up,
Took the good; replaced with bad.
Hate and denial lies beneath my toil,
I have no sense of being me.

Boggled and mixed emotions,
Nothing seems the norm for me.
Don’t want to hide this feeling,
Cut the pain away, please help.
Bloodied and stained,
Scars left poison the fear within.

I thought the boiling would pass,
And I’d be free to forget.
Break the slits once again,
Torn into pieces, I will gleam.
Exit doors now open,
And I can run for another chance.

Swung right, unbolted,
Never will I turn back, no I can’t.
One way entry fee,
No money to stay once more.
Let me out of this room,
Fly away to my home.

Take my wrists, let me cry.