He laughs at me

I stare at him laughing,
with all of his friends.
there laughing about me,
when will this end?

i didn't want to do it,
but he Say's it would be great.
he Say's he wouldn't tell anyone,
this boy i now hate.

he said take it slow,
it was my first time.
he said it might hurt,
but he would be mine.

now he's laughing,
and saying i was crap.
i cant believe i trusted him,
i wish i could go back.

how can i tell him,
that the condom had split.
now everyone would know,
that we really did IT

and now i am pregnant,
with his little brat.
how can i hide it in 6months,
just say i got fat?

who will be there,
when i finally give birth.
i feel like old trash,
like a big piece of dirt.

i sit and i remember,
all the good times.
when life was so great,
and that boy was still mine.