This Pain

It hurts
This pain so deep
I cant help it
I crave it
I need it
Its almost as if its the air I breath
My support
My everything
All depends on this usually unbearable pain
Others may not understand
That for when they hurt me...
I hurt me too
But not the same way
A different way, Very different way
I live for this pain
But only the pain I cause myself
Because if it werent for this unspeakable pain
I wouldnt be here telling you this today.