Wednesday, September 21, 2005
it hurts so bad to know that he just gave up on me and quit just like that
i would never give up on him i love him too much and i would never quit
why do we fall in love
why do we care
when it ends up just all falling apart
i cry myself to sleep sometimes i cant even eat i am so sick of feeling this pain
why do i love him so stinking much
why do i care about him when it seems that he didn't care about me
how could you love someone one day and then the next just quit
how could i have let this happen to me why did i fall so hard
i cant take the pain i just wish that he knew what it is doing to me its killing me slowly
but surely
i feel so sad and helpless
he got what he wanted he made me feel so incredibly low that i dint think i can get
back up on my feet again
i cant stand the sound of his name because it only brings the pain back all over again
i need him so bad though
he was a part of everything i was i am i do i think i say everything
i don't think i can go through life any longer without having in my life
it will be so hard and my heart is so torn
but all i can do is sit here and wait wait wait for the day when he realizes what he had
and what he could still have if only we are two equal people not one higher than the
other
i love him so much and he will always be apart of who i am
i love you Ricky always and forever
