This Is For You

After everything we put each other through
I’m finally able to look back on our relationship with a smile.
With you, I had the best times of my life
We hit so many highs.
We had our lows…ya, we had a lot…
But we got through them all together.
I remember lying with you, time and time again
Thinking that this was all I would ever need in my life.
I was so happy with you, and I became someone
I never thought I’d have to courage to be.
You brought out a whole new side in me that I’d never seen.

You’re gone now.
I pushed you out of my life so fast
That I barely had a chance to whisper goodbye.
It’s not like you fought to stay though.
You calmly walked away from me, without so much as a glance back
And it was then that I knew I had made the right decision.
Looking back on all those times we shared
When I could look into your eyes and just know that you loved me
It all seems a little bit far away.
I can’t even look into your eyes now.
There seems to be this line between us, separating us at great distance
And I can’t cross it.
But that’s okay, because I’m pretty sure that if I did
I would find myself regretting this choice that I know was right.

I took a big risk by walking away from you.
You are the only love I’ve ever known
And for all I know, you could be the only one I’ll ever love.
But by watching you now, from a distance
I realize that it’s not the same for you.
There will be many more girls, just like me
Who will come and go through your life just like the years.
They will love you, maybe not as much as I did
But they will love you all the same.
And when they too choose to walk away, you’ll be left waiting.
You’ll never change, though.
You won’t let anyone change you, no matter how much you love them
And in some ways, I think I admire that.

I said I’d always love you, and I know I didn’t lie.
But I’ve realized that I don’t love you now…
I love the person you became when I was with you.
That boy, the one who was so careful around me
Like I was so fragile.
The one who would never utter a single word that he didn’t mean…
He’s gone now.
I don’t see him in your eyes anymore
And in a way, that’s kind of sad.
But he has come and gone, just like the trust we shared.
I hope that sometime, with some other girl
That boy will come back again.

This is for you hun.
All these words here, these are just to let you know
How I feel now that it’s over.
I’m not mad at you anymore, and I’m not mad at myself either
Because I realize now, even if you don’t, that this is what you needed.
I’m glad that I got to be a part of your life for as long as I was
And I’m glad you were a part of mine.
The past year and eight months of my life
Held the best days of my life so far
And I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world.
I hope you feel the same.