Before

I see the gun
I know it's there
Maybe I should take it?
Just to end this all
To take away my pain
To just end it all today
I wish that I could do it
Just go away forever.
But I'm just waiting for one person
To return into my life
Before I go to heaven
I'll just use this little knife
A little pain to keep me alive
To let me know I'm still living
I'll just stay here waiting
For as long as it takes
I'll just be waiting here forever
Just me and my mistakes.