So many times

The sadness in my life.
the times i want to die.
the times where i cant take anymore.
the time ill commit suicide.

so many times ive cut myself.
so many times ive held that knife.
so many times ive cried.
so many times ive quivered and shaked, thinking about death.

i just want to die.
i cant handle life.
too much going on.
too stressful and depressing.

i hate this life.
i wanna scream,
but nothing will come out.
its death that i yearn for.