Do you really want to die

I am the girl you see in the hallway
The one you talk about
You say bad things
And you dont even know what I am about
I go home to my room
And close the door
So I can cut my wrist
And let all the pain explore
I let it stain into my carpet
Or the bathroom floor
All I know is that I dont want to be here anymore
I fall asleep in my blood and tears
Hoping soon death will come near
As I awake for my new day
I decided I didnt want to play
I didnt want to play anymore
So I made a plan to show them all
The pain they cause me everyday
That day I took a gun to school
Everybody was fooled
As all the students where told to go to the gym
I thought this was my chance to show them
They where handing out awards
I knew I would get one
Because I never did poor
As they called my name out loud
I took my bag and went through the crowd
I took the mic and said a few words
Soon they would all be disturbed
I said,
“Thank you for this and thank you to all the students for my death. You tease me and call me names, all I have to say is I am through with your games.”
I dropped the mic
Took out the gun
And said my last words
“This is what you all have done”
As I dropped to the floor
I could hear screams
Some one call 911
I can’t believe
Am I still alive
There is no way
I could have survived
The next morning
I woke up in a bed
To my bewildered
I wasnt dead
The nurse said
“I survived a shot to my head”
I got balloons, flowers and cards
I asked who they where all from
My classmates she had said
Did they all care?
Where they all glad I wasn’t dead?
That day changed my entire life
And all that happened
Was I took a shot to the head
People do love
Even if they say it isnt true
Don’t take away your life
Just because you want too