I thought about it too.
then i thought about the people i love,
and what id miss,
and that there was soooooo much i didn't know, and at the end i didn't do it.
If you need a friend, you can talk to me, just go to the comment section of my poems and leave a message, then we can go to a chat-room or talk by messenger.
check out my featured poem, 'down comes the rain'.
I feel the exact same way. I had 'friends' who never cared, and all of a sudden they're back, beggin me not to do it. But they can't stop me. They don't care..
Anyway, keep up the writing. Its an inspiration in some weird, twisted, kind of way.