Hatred...
Is all I could FEEL...
Stupid...
Is all I see about ME...
There are things I want to do...
but I control myself just because of you...
I don't want to hurt your feelings..
Cos I know you're the only one I got...
The only one who will love me the most...
I want to know...
if all the things you said to me...
are all true and sincere...
if all the feelings you have for me...
are not full of fakeness and lies...
I want to hear you say..
The words you told me...
Words that never stop my mind...
on keeping myself on asking how...
How could I be so stupid...
Stupid because of loving you...
At first you showed me kindness...
but now...
you broke my heart into pieces...
Do you remember what I've told you before?
that I can only love once and never more...
Now those pieces can never be whole again...
Only if you will say the words I'm looking for...
over and over again...
i don't know why people call me a smart person...
when all of a sudden...
you're there and make me stumble and fall...
till I can't stand up again...
There I thought that you'll lend me your hand...
For you said you love me...
and no one else,
STUPID
again I say it...
for here I am...
I can't move on...
I want to end up all of these...
but...
only if you are near...
So I can say the last words...
I'm longing for to do just for you..
I still love you...
but there's nothing more I can do...
but to kill the stupid me...
just in front of you...
so there will be no more lies...
I could hear....
but still I'm the same...
Loving you is all I can do...
