You are loved
but you dont know why
and not knowing, is what makes you cry
you dont want these people to love you
or to even care
you and yourself make the perfect pair
but no matter what you do
their always there
always willing to lend advice,help,and letting you know they care
but you just beg them to go away
not to come again
you can deal with your own pain
they say you have suffered so much trauma
that you feel your mother committed suicide because of you
and they tell you repeatedly that it just isnt true
they tell you this to make you feel better
but it just wont matter what they do
you know better than that,the reason was you
she couldnt deal with you
she didnt love you that much to stay
i wish it would have gone another,better way
like that she didnt kill herself
or that she loved me more
that i was the only one she would adore
but it didnt
so i must overcome
but inside i feel so bone chillingly numb
technically i know i didnt kill her
but my heart says another
that it was me who was the bother
so she took her life
to get away from me
in heaven with the others,is where she wanted to be
