Take Me Back

I can't take this lie anymore.
i just wanna hide behind my door.
the tears are fading off my cheeks.
i just can't think what happened.
the light shines threw off my walls.

everything is so hard.
I'm dieing inside my own skin.
I'm scared of what i might do.
I'm scared of knowing what i will do.
you were my only one.

but now you left me.
now don't you see?
how much i actually need you.
how much i really want you.
as i write more and more.

wishing you could actually here me threw my door.
but there's no one inside.
just me, the paper, and pen.
the joints are hurting.
while i try to break my arm.

i just need help.
last night i took 19 Advil pills.
yeah i heard it can kill.
but i really didn't care.
it was more like a dare.

i sit on my bed.
while i soak up my pillow.
i realized that you are the only one i want.
and i realized i can't have you.
to me you won't take me back.