Written Under The Influence of Pills

I can feel the disappointment
From the angel on my shoulder
As she notices the hidden scars
And the heart that’s growing colder

She is giving up too
The last I had to keep
Flying off my shoulder
For both of us to weep

I know im not all alone
But how I wish I were
So the pain is less for all of us
When the inevitable is to occur

When that day comes
Where I cut a bit too far
Or I drink too much alcohol
And start to drive my car

Maybe I will drink more pills
And pass out before anyone sees
Or smoke so much my lungs collapse
From an undiagnosed disease

Yes I will pray to die tonight
The same way I always do
To die in your arms if I can
If my suicide doesn’t pull through

May you have the courage
To do what I’ve failed at before
Just think if you do
You wont have to deal with me anymore

I’m broken and I’m yours
But this time it’s my elegy
For once you can’t destroy this
Unless you were to kill me

So I sit here alone in candle light
As i write some more hopeless wills
And this may be the worst poem ever
But it was written under the influence of pills