I look at you and the pain rises tremendously
My anger doesn't justify the fact that you're gone.
Whenever I see you I'm tempted to curse and yell
But you are first my friend, so my feelings have to be
withdrawn.
Torn by the things you did and said
Hurt by the feelings left and the loneliness ahead.
Now my enemy but forever my friend
Both of us too prideful to let it all end.
I think back and reminisce on the times we shared
The computer fights and broken hearts; repaired.
Staying up all night and talking about forever
Being friends always and enemies never.
How do I explain to the one who knew me so well
That my heart you tore and put me through hell.
I miss you and want to try to work things out
But how, when words get in the way and we resort to
shout.
When truthfully, dancing on beds to Mariah Carey
And sharing meaningful secrets over Ben and Jerry,
Inside jokes and tons of pictures on hand
Are things only a best friend could understand.
As I sit here and write this, I start to smile
Because I know you will read this and find it all
worthwhile.
You'll understand it and me, and the way I feel
Because it's something only a best friend could heal.
Though things may not always be the same
We won't go back to the friends we once became.
But to repair the gap to a tolerable degree
Is something only best friends could do...
That's you and me.
