Thoughts of my day

Sitting day after day with pain
just wondering why
makes me want to cut some more
hoping it will dry the tears I\\\'ve cried

some days i like to cut
some days i like to cry
some days i do them both
just asking myself why

not knowing what to think
or even what to do
sitting with the pain inside
all because of you

hoping i will heal
and trying to escape
never knowing what to do
and if it\\\'s all a mistake

all the thoughts inside my head
are telling me i shouldn\\\'t live
and fly away into another world
and let a new life begin

and as i sit locked in a place
where people call me a h o e
i can now finally see
how much i want to go

just wishing i had the guts to do it
every time i take out the blade
i would no longer have to feel the pain
and my life would slowly fade away

but i hope i get through my life
and just sit down and breath
not having to worry
about my suicidal dreams