Wow is that really how you feel?
if it is i know what your going trough i went trough that to my perents wanted to dend me to boarding school and anything you can imagine i ran away from home cut myself with razor blades any thing you can think off but it will get better as soon as you stop thinking about how misserable you are cause when you leave it all behind youll see that you will still have problems but then again thats part of life but youll have the best time ever and you will never feel down youll enjoy every thing