Test me

Sometimes i hide
i also fill my life with pride
im dazed and confused
with all these thought
dont kno wen to go or stop

all this hurt and pain
has lead me to beleive
my life is a joke
a laughing joke of this town

im surrounded by drama
my thoughts are deep
my body is week
im filled with anger
not knowing when to stop

my anxiety is sky high
im wanting to weep
i am the black sheep

my family has fallen
my friends have dropped
my heart is broken
unable to mend

i feel so alone
with no one to lean on
its all muh fault
wat can i say

ive hurt myself
and many others
i want to fix it
unable to succeed

im down and out
used and hurt
my wounds are bleeding
forever long

im waiting for the day
wen i meet my maker
and tell him im sorry
sorry for the doubt
sorry for the anger
not wanting to beleive
but wanting to succeed

for not fighting temptation
and always giving in
for listening to people
and joining the sin

all this jelousy and hate
has lead me to beleive im not perfect and never will be
im not here to satisfy
im here to beleive

im tired of not careing
and wanting to be accepted
im not here to be molested
by all these hurtful words

im tired of all the put downs
its brought me down so far
my heart is hurting
its screams for love

my friends have hurt me
my family also
they say its all muh fault
and i need to change

they say i need help
but there not willing
to help me
they say i dnt kno wat love is
but neither do they

my faith is failing
i dnt beleive in myself
it shouldnt have to be that way

but im done with
all this hurt
and im done with
all this painim closeing the door
its time for me to soar
time for me to beleive
and not depend on others
im shuting evry1 out now
since they all did it to me
i can do this on muh own
see how much ive grown

well thanx for all the help guys for making me realize u all are just a joke,a joke to me,your not wanting to help ,ur wanting me to bleed,well guess wat ive stitched up all my wounds now as well as shut you out!

so goodbye now, youve done it,youve hurt me so,time for me to shine and put on a show,im bigger and better more then you know im blessed and singled out but im willing to glow!!

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