The only way out

I don't want to be here,
not in this room,
not in this house,
not in this world.
i always think whats the point...

then i found you and everything was great
i was smiling and laughing,
not screaming and cutting...
you changed my life....

then some thing went wrong and i don't know what but you left me stranded, that night i couldn't take the pain i cut so deep...it wouldn't
stop bleeding.............

thats it I'm not in this room or in this house or in this world...
i cut because i didn't want to feel for you any more but at the same time i couldn't live with out you... the only way out was death...