If I had the courage
I know just where I'd start,
I'd grip my pen and place the point
to write a letter from the heart.
If I could see the future
and I knew this wouldn't hurt,
I'd explain the reasons why I ran,
how I came to meet her -
She's beautiful you know,
and I can't begrudge you that,
I hope that's not what's holding you to her,
because that's something I can't fight back.
If I had a face from a troubadour's song
and my eyes were the color of night,
if my body was a man's temptation,
and my skin ivory white,
then perhaps I wouldn't need words
to inspire your heart and your soul,
and perhaps I could entice the declaration from your lips,
that would make my wounded heart whole.
If I had the wisdom
I'd know just what to say,
and how to say it simply
so it would touch you just that way.
If I thought my words could do it -
hold still your depart,
I'd write it in a second,
my letter from the heart.
If I had the lion's bravery
then I wouldn't falter like I am,
I know that we're just people -
but you're not just any man.
If I could find within myself
the strength to not look back,
then I'd write what I feel in a letter,
but I just don't have the knack.
Flowery phrases were never mine,
and it's so hard to explain how I feel,
I'm good with arguments and presentations,
but this is something real.
And I know she’s something special,
I couldn’t even hate her, though I tried,
But when I said I’d be okay,
I hope you know I lied.
I love you, and I need you,
I want you, and what’s more,
I crave the way things used to be,
And the life we had before.
If I could state it all just right
Then maybe that’s all it would take -
And I need the strength to do it,
For both our sakes.
If I had the courage,
I’d fill it with truths from end to start,
I swear that I mean every word,
Here’s my letter from the heart.
