Control

The blood started trickiling up my throat
The burning seemed unreal
I tried to shut my mouth
Not knowing what was next to come
I told myself not to do it
I knew how much it would hurt
But I just couldn't stop myself
Hurting myself was way too fun,
Hurting myself was way too easy
I knew it was wrong,
I knew it would hurt
But it was the only part of my life I could control
And it felt so good
Too good to stop,
And too good to care about the pain
I finally had some control in my life
And I wasn't about to throw it away
On one momet of weakness