Notice me..please

Always the fun one
the only who's always there
to make your problems go away
but my screams you do not hear

..my mask is painted happy
..a front so you do not see
that the person that i hide away
is the actual real me

at first it was simple
to tell little lies
but now its getting obvious
..the pain leaks from my eyes

never have i cried before
as much as i do now
i want to get through it
..but it leave me wondering how

ill reveal the real me
and throw away the mask
i just want you to notice
..that is all i ask