As I Fade Away. . .

It's hard to describe this,
it's hard to explain
why I feel so much anger
why I feel so much pain
I'm falling so quickly
getting up just as fast
but there's never I time
when my happiness lasts.
and as days start to end
and as I start to fade
I look for something
to make me live another day
but so seldom I find it
when I'm looking so far
it's scary to think that
this is so hard.
surrounded by darkness
without a single trace of light
it scares me, cause I don't know
if everything will be alright.
But I hide it again
behind all my fake smiles.
tears form in my eyes
but I'll hold them in for a while
I try to forget
but there's no starting again.
and would you help me if I said
that I wanted my life to end?