Someone ~please listen

I am so sorry
If any of you hate me
Today I start my age of delusions
I will not come back to reality
For yet so many months
Remember me,please
I have to go
This is urgent
My soul is dying
My spirit's bleeding
My mind is crying
My wings are torn
My bodies through
No one is here
I dont know what to do
But please forgive me
If I hurt you
I am going into my closed up solitude
I am going to be alone for some time
I'm...going to wait
For myself to heal
I can't take the cruel world's lies