I can't pretend that everything is ok when I know that it's not.
I hide away from the world,
I hide my secrets deep inside my soul.
I don't want you to see me,
At least, not like this.
I'm so confused.
So much is going on.
I'm scared.
I can't let anyone in.
My heart is already thrashed and bruised.
Sometimes I wish life wasn't so hard.
Because then maybe I could let down my guard....but I can't.
It's too risky to even try.
I want you to see me, the real me.
But my mask of make-up won't come off. Not without help. I need your help.
My life is hard.
I'm scared to get close to someone.
And that's not how I want to live.
Help me....I'm begging you to help me.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
I need my mask to be removed. But I can't do it without you.
It needs to be removed carefully, and slowly.
It's painful, so please be careful.
It hurts to do it by myself.
And you're not here right now to help me.
I'm screaming now. Screaming for help.
But nobody is around to hear me.
You aren't here to listen to my screaming pleas.
YOu aren't here, and I need you to come to my rescue....
I need you to show me how to love again.
But when I learn, I need you to give me love in return.
I want to learn how to care, and love someone.
But you're the only one that can teach me.
You're the only one I trust enough to teach me.
But I need you to understand....I'm scared. Terrified, and this is really hard for me.
But just give me time. And I promise to do my best to understand and learn.
Just don't shut me out.
And don't give up.
I need you now more than ever.
I don't know where else to go.
You're my only chance.
So please, just stay.
Just listen to me, and don't walk away.
Just be there when I need you to be.
Don't betray me.....just stay.
I'm trying to remove the make-up.
And you're the only one I'm willing to take it off for.
I'm ashamed of myself. But I accept myself when you're around.
So don't go.
Don't leave me like this.
I need you. And I know you need me too.
You used to be like me.
You used to feel like me.
So help me. You're the only one that can.
I just want all the tears to stop rolling down my face.
I want all the pain to go away.
Your heart used to be as hurt as mine.
You too, lost someone you love. And it hurts just knowing that they have already gotten over it. And the one you lost doesn't care anymore because they found someone new to love.
So maybe....just maybe if I find someone that love me, I can learn to love them back.
I can learn to love them back and forget about the one I lost.
But I know you love me. I can feel it.
And your love is what I need right now.
Just promise me something....promise me that you'll be honest with me, and tell me how you feel.
I know this may seem like a lot to ask of you.
And I thank you.
Because I don't know what would have happened to me if I didn't have you.
You're my hero.
And if I need you I know you'll be there.
You've done so much for me.
But I'm still screaming inside.
It still hurts.
It hurts so bad.
I'm trying to make it stop.
But I can't.
I can't take it anymore.
It's so hard.
But I won't give up.
But if I slip and fall. Just help me up.
I've lost my balance.
And I might fall a lot.
My mask is still on.
It won't come off unless you really want it to.
If you want to see the real me, you need to understand that I'm weak.
I'm weak without my mask of make-up.
So weak and helpless.
Without my mask I'm defenseless.
My mask is what my life is based on.
But little by little it's coming off.
The last little bit hurt the worst. But I did it, it's off.
My mask of make-up has been wiped away.
Now I stand here. I let you see me.
I let you see the real me.
I'm relieved that it's off. But now my fear grows.
I let you look at me, I let you ask me questions.
I tell you the truth, and you're the only one that knows.
You're the only one that knows the real me.
But yet, you still love me.
And by you still loving my, without my mask, not only makes me love me, but it makes me love you too.
Thank you.
You saved my life.
But just remember, that it still hurts a little, and the memories won't ever go away.
But I've decided that the make-up won't go back on.
I'm free now.
Free to be myself.
Because there's only one me.
