You raped me

Every night I pray that my door room doesnt open...
I hear his footsteps
I\'m praying that its just a dream...

This repeats every night
for past 3 years
I\'m afraid to look at myself
in the eye.
I\'m afraid if I tell someone
he\'ll hurt my foolish pride...

Every night that man
called my step father
come in my room
when everyone is asleep
He come in my room
takes my clothes off...
If I make a sound
he\'ll give me few slaps a
nd smach my head on the wall

He pulls me towards him
sticks 2 of this fingers
inside of my virginia
then he takes his pant off
forces his penis inside of me..
He covers my mouth
so i dont scream..
Tears are racing
down my face
i tired to pushhim off
but im not that strong...

This lasts only few minutes
but it seems like forever...
the pain i cant explain...
He pulls his pants up
grab me by my head
"if u tell anyone,
you will be dead\" he says

He leaves my room,
I can\'t sleep
I start to sweep
\"whats wrong\"
i hear my mom from her room
\"nothing i jus got a cold\"