Battle Lost

I'm wasting away again
the enemy is back
stronger than I've ever been

yet the enemy is myself
and the battle is for my body
and I'm losing

I've fought this war once
Ive done this before
this time I'm gonna lose

my mind has lost its inner battles
with its self, my heart hasn't
the strength to try

so i pull out the big shirts
to cover my flaws and look
away from everyones
knowing eyes

when they ask if I'm okay
yes is my lie I wont let them know
deep down I'm trying to die

this is the only thing I have left
to control in my life yet
it has taken control of me