A Prayer

I cant write, lest I bleed every word,
wrestling my pen to the page, like King James III,
God, I don't feel like living but everyone says I must,
so do with me what You Will, in only You I trust,
Lord, I know I've been weak, and haven't been a good man,
but knowing You know me better than I know myself I hope You understand,
as I pray, let me pray for my family, keep them in Your Good Graces,
help them through the hardships they face, live a life completely painless,
as for the one I Love, Lord my soul speaks for itself,
You're more aware than I am of the feelings I've felt,
She may make mistakes Lord, but her heart is warm and loving,
regardless of the things She's said to me, I know she feels something,
Lord, You know my tears are for Her, and its hard for me to even utter Her name,
but I cant keep myself from asking You for Her, only hoping She does the same,
God please promise me Her happiness, so I could return to You in peace,
console Her if she ever weeps, hold Her Soul close to You as She sleeps,
I've accepted defeat, and know my Love for Her will never die,
asking You Lord for forgiveness for the nights I've cried, trying to console my self, telling myself lies,
Oh Allaah, You Created Love, and I found it in Her,
now She haunts me in my thoughts and I'm surrounded by Her,
Dear God, I'm a lost soul with out Her, and I need You to find my way,
incomplete as I am, I guess this is the price I have to pay,
I didn't mean to hurt Her, and I wish there was something I could do,
to show Her, Lord how much I Love and care for Her, & my feelings are True,
God, I end this prayer by praising Your name, You are as perfect as You have described Yourself,
I ask You for the ones I Love, strength, stability spiritually, and continuous prosperous health.

Amen*