I thought i new what it was like to be loved.
i thought i knew what it was like to live life to the fullest.
o was i so wrong.
all i know is pain and misery.
something in my life is always wrong.
nothing ever goes right and when i think it is, it blows up in my face.
like everything in my life.
all i know is that some part of me must enjoy the pain. cuz thats all i know how to do to myself.
put me in pain.
suffering, lying in misery, PAIN.
more and more.
never releasing its grip on me.
but one day all the pain will be gone.
but only when i am gone.
i hope that it will someday end.
that joyous day when i feel no more pain.
that i know not what it is anymore.
