Revisit?

Wrote about 6 months ago
Did I make a big deal?
I was just so confused
Did I cry for no reason?
I felt alone, unwanted, used
My happiness is starting to fade
Maybe I should revisit my old friend the blade?
Its ironic how it once kept me alive
It had the weird power to revive
How silly that sounds but yes it is true
Pushing me towards that path is you
Another nudge and I will fall
Although once I did stand tall
I wont let this happen
I wont make that mistake again
I just cant handle all of this pain
I know deep down it was the wrong thing to do
So I wont be a prisoner again to you