Desperatly Trying

I'm trying this for you
Oh I'm trying so hard
I know your there
But you're just so far
It's not fair
I don't know what to do

I'm trying to be strong
I'm trying so hard
But I am so weak
Crying in pieces
I cannot speak
It's all going so wrong

I'm trying to smile
Oh I'm trying so hard
I wear a mask
But it's slipping
Falling so fast
I can only hold on for a while

I'm trying not to hurt
I'm trying so hard
But I'm losing this fight
Can't stop this
I cut again tonight
It just doesn't seem to work

I'm trying not to cry
Oh I'm trying so hard
But the tears won't stop
Drowning my dreams
Staining my face
Endless they seem
Never again will they dry

I'm trying to stay
Oh I'm trying so hard
But I can't breathe
Can't speak
So numb with pain
Again and again
Now darkness shadows my way.