Better Off Without You

I'm sick of the pain
I'm tired of the lies
I'm sick of you always hurting me
You don't know what I'm feeling
You don't understand what goes on in my min day and night
I know I hurt you and you know you hurt me
But why can't we just let it go?

The pain is to much, it's tearing me apart
I wish it would go away
I'm confused on what to do
Should I run and hide or should I fight?
If I run and hide, then will the pain keep coming back?
Will it keep haunting me till I do something?
Or will it finally go away with no problem?

But then if I fight it, will it be over quicker?
Will I, finally be allowed to breath?
Allowed to be myself without someone telling me not do this and not to do that?
I thought that I could always be myself
But obviously not when you're around
You won't even let me do something simple like walk somewhere away from you

I can't breath, I feel smothered
I can't be strong, I feel weak
I can't be myself, I have to be someone I'm not
I can't do the normal things I do everyday that you don't like
But I'm sorry I can't be your baby girl and the "angel" you want me to be
That's not who I am
So you better just hand me a bullet and a gun so I can pull the trigger.

~it's been a while but it would help a lot if you voted and commented and as usual I'll be sure to comment back. thanks~

^thanks XxTeArSxX17 for the title help.^