Its My Fault

I hate my life,
Because I live in a hateful place,
Every way I turn I see a hateful face,
Directed toward me and I don't know why,
It seems the only place I can get my answer is in the sky,
But honestly I cant even get it there,
Because i don't hear voice's talking back in my prayer,
So I guess you could say I'm lost,
I've done a lot of bad things in my life,
I guess my answer is I'm paying the cost?