It is when i recollect, that i feel most inspired.
when i recall feelings and emotions that have grown tired...
i felt it again today, inspired by your voice
and so here i am again...i have no other choice.
how amazing to remember how much you meant to me
how hard everything was that i wanted to be easy
my smiles were few and far between...
everything you said, i know you really didn't mean.
i felt it impossible to laugh, all the things i couldn't let go...
the way you made me feel you will never want to know.
i was never happy though your heart always sang that very same song...
and i always kept loving you even when i knew it was wrong.
i can say now that i loved you too much for my own good
though I'd never take it all back even if i could.
because to look at you was painful and heaven at the same time...
you were the only one i loved, still you'd never be mine...
and from that i have experience emotions I've never felt before,
found strength in myself when i felt i couldn't do it anymore...
saw every single beauty that a human can possess,
and survived only dreaming of happiness...
like my air, you were in my every single breath..
and in your absence, i thought it'd only bring me death...
but today i feel it all again, though in a whole new way...
reminiscing in the things that you say.
you can't break me, you can't hurt me..I'm not scared
I'll accept that this great love of mine was never shared...
I'll smile remembering how good it really feels...
be in awe of the simple memories your voice to me reveals...
forgive myself for the endless struggle i had sought,
more importantly, the endless pain to me you brought.
but after all is said and everything is done...
when there is nothing left, i have but just this one...
the things that you can't give, the things you'll never take,
regardless of your ignorance or of my mistake...
the memories of what was always meant to be...
those are the things you will never take away from me.
they will never haunt me, for they will always make me smile
and we'll be together again, even if it's just a little while.
