Im sorry i lied

I told him i didnt love him
but i said id never lie
it hurts me so much inside
that the tears wont dry

Whenever i think about
his hug, his touch, his kiss
my heart aches so badly
and i know how much i will miss

I shouldnt call it lieing
i was saving my heart
cupid pointed his arrow
and shot the killing dart

He hurt me for the last time
i gave him many chances
to prove to me he loved me
with the loving, caring glances

Now it hurts
when i see or think of him
it tears me up inside
what do i do?