Escaping Reality

Sometimes you just got to get away.
It was perfect, everything i could have ever dreamed of.
Best time of my life, no doubts, no regrets.
And as quick as it came, it was gone.
Taken away, all was lost,
but experiencing something like that, i knew there was a cost.
I was left empty.
Everything i could of hoped for,
and now im here longing for more.
You never know how great you have it,
until its gone.
Im losing the feeling,
memories are fading.
Im dead inside,
feel like theres no reason to live.
Theres nothing that can awaken me like the sweet kiss of a blade.
Warmth overcomes me.
Im escaping reality once again,
this is the best ive ever been.
The anger, the sadness,
it slowly drains form my body.
Tears run down my cheeks, but i cant feel a thing.
My ears begin to ring.
Ive become numb.
My heart is pounding, I dont wanna go back,
Leave me here,
with my tempting thoughts.
Nothing can cure me, consider me lost.
Looking at what i had,
how did things get so bad?
I need to get out of here,
gotta escape.
Mabey one more slice,
Oh how I cannot carry on without my perfect paradise.