Broken Soul

Water beating off her skin,
She turns up the temperature,
steam rising in circles
she curls up, arms wrapped around her legs.

sitting there, memories flash by,
tears trickle from her eyes
remembering everything lost
all mistakes ever made.

cursing to herself
music blaring in the background
she loses focus in time
drifts back to happy moments in life

trying so hard to forget the pain,
to make it all go away
no where to turn anymore
she now understood the meaning of the word Alone.

torn apart inside
finding it hard to breath
the shower still burning her skin
she passes out from pangs of hunger

a hole left in her heart
loving someone who didn't love her back
Self worth below the ground
she starts falling in the black again

words,poetry,lyrics,
everything reminds her of him,
consumed by anger and frustration
not able to rid herself by any means

loving so much she can't let go
she smashes her head off a table
the water still running
the steam closing off all air to breath

unable to move from the floor
the blade has pierced her veins
gasping from pain, sucking in air,
the blood flows all around her.

the door handle shaking,
she can hear the vibrations
through blurred eyes, she looks up
remembering the lock she put on

trying to forget it
she returns to her point of focus
the pulsing wrists, cut along the river
two slashes across to make it flow faster

lying alone in her own blood,
that was how they found her,
frozen solid, steam all around,
stained in blood,a broken vein, a broken soul.

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