You torture me inside my mind

You torture me inside my mind,
Into the vast darkness I fall,
So much pain, so little time,
How can I take it all?

You slap my face, you throw me down,
You force your way inside me,
You laugh at me, muffle my screams,
You do this to me nightly.

Now you've hurt her too,
Made me think she was dead,
And you enjoy these things!
Enjoy messing with my head.

You've hurt me too,
So many times you've caused me pain.
Both physical and mental,
Yet still you don't see, still you come back to do it again and again.

You break my mind
Each night you're here,
Send thoughts through my brain,
All tinged with fear.

I wish that I could leave you,
Just never see you,
Never have to think about your evil ways
And all the things you do.

I hate you so much
That it's not even worth thinking about.
There are so many things I want to say to you,
So many things I want to shout.

I hope someday you'll leave me behind,
Just leave it all alone,
Maybe when I've forgotten about you
Then I can find my way home...

© copyright of Holly Nia Goodson