i was 2
just learning
all you did was sleep
you and my mom fought when you were awake.
Then you'd leave.
you were never there.
i was 4
i told my mom you had a woman over
not knowing she was your other girlfriend
she slapt in my moms bed w/ you.
that was the last time you were there
i was 6.
i came to see you
i loved you so much
all i ever wanted was to be with you
but you were never there
you preferred your bottle over me
and your new girlfriend.
you showed your new son more attention then you ever showed me
you loved him more than me.
it was obvious
i was nothing to you.
i was 8.
Having my school play
i worked so hard
i begged you to come watch me
& you said you would
i looked everywhere in the crowd for your face
you weren't there.
throughout my childhood
all you did was fight
you were always drunk
or high
you were always leaving
leaving me alone
making me cry
you never even cared
you didn't even know
cause you were never there.
I'm 17 now
i don't want to see you
i don't care to hear from you
everything i hear makes me cry
i always think your going to die
your 44
when are you going to grow up?
when are you going to show me LOVE
when will you care
will you be alive for my 18th birthday?
will you be alive for my wedding?
will you be alive for my first baby?
I'm not sure but the only thing i know is...
you wont be there
